What if, or what now?

Life is full of questions. From mundane to life-changing, they rule our lives and our decisions. We don't always get the answers, and if we do, they aren't always answers that we like. Many times, the answer to one question presents itself as a new question. What if becomes what now.

It's strange to spend several years thinking that someone is exactly like you, but getting frustrated because you can't figure him out. If he's just like you, figuring out how and why he acts the way he does should be the easiest thing in the world. But then late one night, it hits you like the piece of sky hit Chicken Little: he is nothing like you. You don't know why it took you more than two years to figure it out...maybe it's because you're not the same person you were then. More likely, you were only seeing what you wanted to see.

And that's why what happened between us was such an epic fail.

Still, I truly think that everything does happen for a reason. I thought that moving here, not going to a school in the state I used to live in, were the two worst things that had ever happened to me. It just took some time to realize that they were, in reality, the greatest things I could have ever imagined, because they brought the most amazing person I've ever met into my life. The really crazy thing is, this wasn't his first choice ever. We were so close to never happening at all...but a series of disappointments for each of us led us to where we are now. And I couldn't be happier.

So as for this "epic fail," well...let's just say that I don't think it was for nothing. I think that I finally accomplished what I set out to do; now I just have to sit back and see...

what now?