Alcohol and distress do not discretion make.

And yet, I'll try.

Basically, I'm proud of myself. Because for once in my life, I managed to step outside of "carpe diem." Don't get me wrong; I think that "seize the day" is one of the best mottos one could have. But living in the moment 24/7 has its consequences.

And for what may possibly be the very first time in my whole life, I've found something that was worth considering the consequences before the action, rather than after the fact.

This is not going to go the way I want it to go. I know that. Having my way would be having the cake and eating it too, and that's selfish and unrealistic. I'm going to stop being self-absorbed and expecting the world to bend to my every whim and fancy. It's just not going to happen.

I could tell you what will happen; I know that already. But that would ruin the surprise for everyone else.